day eleven: something people seem to compliment you the most on.

more often than not, people compliment me on my hair. apparently i do it very well, and it always looks good. i think that's funny, cause i rarely do my hair, at least actually take time to do it. i've also been told it's a very pretty color, and length. thanks to all who think that!

the other thing i get complimented on, is my skin color. i guess i always look tan, even in the winter. i think that's also funny, cause i've never gone tanning a day in my life. all natural, baby! i get my amazing skin from my daddy, who hails from florida. isn't that just pure luck for me? i sure think so.

day ten: someone you need to let go, or wish you didn't know.

i wish i didn't know this one boy, that swears at me all the time on purpose. he does it all the time because a while back i asked him not to swear in front of me. it makes my day very sad and meaningless. i should have known better, he is, after all, a teenage boy.

day nine: someone you don't want to let go, but just drifted.

that would be all my previous "best friends." we always said we were gonna be "best friends forever," but something always pulled us apart. they usually became too cool for me, which is perfectly ok with me. if popularity is what they wanted, i'm glad they moved on, cause i know i'm not popular in their eyes, and i don't care enough to be popular. but, i'm ok with that. in fact, i prefer it. i don't like it when people i don't know, want to know everything about my life. its very weird. they have their own lives to live, why do they wanna spend all their time dissecting mine? that kinda got way off subject, but you get the idea.

day eight: someone who made your life horrible, or treated you like crap.

i'm very happy to say that so far, no one has made my life horrible.
too bad i can't say that for the "treated me like crap" part of this post.
there has been way too many people that treated me like crap, to say on this post. there was this one boy, though, who treated me horribly. he wanted to be my boyfriend, and when i told him no, he started finding ways to hurt me. it was horrible. but it's over, and i survived. it really doesn't matter to me, when i think about all the things i am blessed with. i know i'll be ok in the end.

day seven: someone who has made your life worth living for.

for me, there isn't just one person who has made my life worth living for. its more of a small group of people. first off in the little group would have to be my family. each and every person in my family makes my life worth living for. my mommy and my daddy, my sisters, sue, shelly and cori, and my two brothers, joe and jordan. they make up a huge part of my life, and i'm so glad they're there for me.

the rest of that small group would have to be my three best friends. they're so good to me, even when i'm a jerk to them. they all make my day, in one way or another, and they're all always looking out for me. i have the three best friends i could ever ask for, and i'm so glad they're mine.

day six: something you hope you never have to do.

mine is kind of cliche, but i don't care.

of all the things in the world, i hope i never have to face my worst fear.

realistically though, i'll have to face it in the end. no matter how many times i run away from it, no matter how many things i do to avoid it, i'm gonna have to face it.

day five: something you hope to do in your life.

something i hope to do in my life. well, there are many things i hope to do in my life. which is why i have multiple bucket lists. i guess one i really like is live in a foreign country. preferably somewhere in europe. it has just always been something i've wanted to do. probably because of the culture there. everything looks so amazing. my dream is to visit the eiffel tower. i am in love with it. i love the structure of it, how original it is. i'd wanna live anywhere remotely close to it, so that i could pass it everyday as i went to work, or something. its kind of a weird ambition, but i like it, so it doesn't matter to me if its weird. ha.

day four: something you have to forgive someone for.

probably the biggest thing i need to forgive someone for is any high school girl, pretending she cares about what's going on in my life. she pretty much just wants to hear the dirt. which is why i don't know many people. lately this has been my conversation with those kind of girls:

her: "hey girl! how's it going with you and kaleb? are you like, still together?"
me: "oh, ya know..."
her: "haha yeah..."
me: "pretty much."
*silence*
her: "ok i gotta go now, see ya around chica!"
me: "mmkay."

except i sound much happier in real life, and after they just give me weird looks. don't get me wrong though, i love the ones who genuinely care about my life, but the ones who just wanna hear how far i've gone with kaleb or whatever, so that they can tell others all about it, those are the ones i can't stand. the fake ones. the ones who get by, by bringing others down. anyways, thats my little rant for the day. love you all!

day three: something you have to forgive yourself for.

this one is hard to narrow down. there are lots of things i need to forgive myself for, yet i rarely do. i have no idea why, it just happens that way. i guess what i'll say to this one is, i have to forgive myself for my bad habits. they all started at such a young age, that now that i realize they're bad, i don't know how to get rid of them. or more accurately, i don't want to get rid of them. slowly, but surely, i'm figuring them out. tackling each and every one of them. i'm gonna get better.

another big thing i have to forgive myself for, is giving up. sometimes, i just give up. i quit. i think something along the lines of, "this is useless. i shouldn't be doing this." i really just need to tough it out, till the very end. i need to be able to look back on my life, and be grateful i could even do any of those things in the first place. that's pretty much it.

day two: something you love about yourself

ok, i have to admit, this one is kinda hard.

probably the thing i love most about myself, is that i dream big. it's the thing that makes me happiest. i love dreaming. i usually like it alot more when its about something i love to do. like i could make up routines for cheers for hours. or i could design my dream wedding until the end of the world. i really like thinking about the impossible, wishing for the things i can never have. it makes life much more interesting.

i also love my tummy. it makes me happy.

day one: something you hate about yourself.

there are quite a few things i don't like about myself, but i'll just tell you about the one that ties them all together. i dwell on the imperfect parts of everything. whenever i come home from cheer practice, i always tell my mom about how i almost didn't catch a girl, when instead i should be telling her about how i landed my tumbling pass. when just one thing goes wrong in my day, it instantly turns rotten. then all i can think about is that one thing. after a while, it snowballs into a bunch of little things going wrong, making me very grumpy. i really just need to work on not letting them effect me, and not caring about them. and i'm definitely not good at hiding when i'm mad or sad.

mission: accepted.

my mission, should i choose to accept it, is to go through the thirty days of truth. i was dared to do it, and i never turn down dares, so imma accept it. are you ready for this?

thirty days of truth:

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.
Day 2: Something you love about yourself.
Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 8: Someone who made your life horrible, or treated you like crap.
Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.
Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough days. (write a letter.)
Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.
Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.
Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.
Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

sent from heaven's sky..

I thought you were my angel,
Sent from heaven's sky.
I thanked God for your presence,
But now I wonder why.
You took your bow and arrow,
And aimed it at my heart.
You let it rip right through my soul,
And left me torn apart.

I started to wonder what went wrong.
I love'd you without fail.
But above all else I figured out,
You're just a typical male.

i love little children.

A Sunday school teacher was discussing the Ten Commandments with
her five and six year olds. After explaining the commandment to "honor
thy Father and thy mother," she asked, "Is there a commandment that
teaches us how to treat our brothers and sisters?"
Without missing a beat one little boy (the Oldest of a family)
answered, "Thou shall not kill."

I love little children.

dragon eater

lately i've had a thing for random pictures. so i'm going to post some.







i love how they all show me the same thing, when i really look at them. like an answer i've been waiting for. wow, i'm deep. must mean i'm tired.

soul mates, for reals.

guess what. ok fine, don't guess, but i'll tell you anyways. i did another thing off my live list. i colored on my sidewalk. with lindsey. yay for us. it turned out pretty good, actually. i was surprised. the entire time, we talked about her new guy friend. i think they're soul mates, but she's crazy and pretends he doesn't like her, when he totally does. i'm just the only one that can see it.. haha. so that is why my title is so random. just thought i'd share. and now for the pictures.

my drawings.

the square of color splotches is what lindsey did. pretty neat.

me and lindsey. the photographer wasn't very smart, and therefore didn't comprehend when i asked if the drawings were in the picture. oh well, it turned out cute.

live simple.

i did another one. yay for morgan! wanna know what i did? i layed in the street at night. i had actually just took my dear friend maggie home, and brought my camera. ofcourse i had to stop to lay in the street. my sister thought i was crazy, but she took the picture anyways. and we end up with this lovely shot:

and now i have completed another task. i'm getting really good at this:)

my miraculous monstrocity on a magnificent midfall day

everyone should be proud of me. the end.

p.s. i figured out the video thing on here, obviously. yay for morgan!